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The 2003 ‘Regime Change’ season at Shakespeare’s Globe saw the theatre belatedly extend its original practices experiments – which had included a number of productions with all-male casts – to a single-sex, women-led company, performing Richard III and The Taming of the Shrew in repertory. Phyllida Lloyd joined the project late in the day after Barry Kyle left the production, and the result (as seen on the archive video at Shakespeare’s Globe) is a joyful, comic, and playfully satirical take on the play that celebrates the bodies and improvisatory skill of the company’s women.Adidas Men's Terrex Ax2r Trail Running shoesSmoky Mountain Men's Boonville Cowboy Boot Square Toe - 4028.Designer ME Mens Karrimor KSB Tech Approach Hiking shoes Charcoal Yellow Guys GentsCole Haan Copley 2 Gore Slip-on Loafer.

Petruchio (Janet McTeer) shows his true colours, controlling Katherina (Kathryn Hunter) with tight embraces.

For Lloyd’s company, men are a species unto themselves. Even rival suitors Hortensio (Yolanda Vazquez) and Gremio (Penelope Dimind) slap one another’s backs and share mutually reinforcing shouts and grunts. Petruchio, when he emerges in the imposing six-foot form of Janet McTeer, QRETYSG flip flop Thick Soled Beach Fashion Flip Flops for Men Leisure Concise PU Outside Slippers Rivet Sewing Solid Rubber Summer shoesBruetting Eisberg, Men’s Snow Bootsis the most alpha of the males, embodying a slightly swaggering but entirely self-possessed confidence that brooks no argument.

This commedia-inflected production plays the Shrew fairly straight, for laughs, and without the induction that might give it an ironic frame. Instead, any critique and irony comes from within the performances themselves, as the company allow the play to be a comedy but allow that comedy to push to uncomfortable places. Kathryn Hunter’s Katherina is a spoiled woman-child, stamping her feet and shouting wordlessly when she doesn’t get her way,KG Kurt Geiger - DenchDr. Martens Unisex Adults’ 1461 Pw Analine shoes and in the early scenes Petruchio brilliantly turns this against her when informing the other men that they have agreed she will do this – when she stamps, the men clap and cheer her; when she shouts, they turn it into a huzzah, depriving her of her best weapons. Her abuse of her sister Bianca (Laura Rogers) is thorough and quite violent, but this comes from justifiable resentment at the clear favouritism of her father Baptista (Anna Healy). Katherina has undeniable problems, but watching her passed over by her father and gaslit by her wooer is still hard to watch.

During the second half, at Petruchio’s house, the strategies are very clear and centred around food. In a clever move, Lloyd brings onstage Petruchio’s spaniel Troilus, an actor in a dog costume, who takes an immediate dislike to Katherina; Katherina tries to flee from the dog, Josef Seibel Schuhfabrik GmbH Maestro shoes MensWork America Mens Soft Toe Slip On Safety shoesthen beats it with a broom, leaving it whimpering away to get the sympathy of the servants. Later, Katherina sneaks up to the dog while it and Grumio sleep to steal its boneMil-Tec &apos Tactical Boots Leather Black,Elten 74271-37 Size 37 ESD S3 Ghost Lady Mid Safety shoes - Multi-ColourXUJW-SHOES, . Men's Classic Carved With Cotton In Winter Brogue High Top Boot Fashion Ankle Boots Casual (color Brown, Size 8.5 UK) her hunger absolutely desperate by this point. Later, as a reward, Petruchio gives Katherina some food, but then embraces her and coddles her while Hortensio finishes it off. And increasingly it becomes obvious that Petruchio is treating Katherina exactly like his dog, right down to the whistles and shouts of ‘Here’. Giro Code VR70 Bike shoes Mens

The comedy of the production is sincere, then, but leads to uncomfortable positions. Hunter’s virtuoso physical skills allow her to be tumbled upside down when she fights against Petruchio, and to be carried around the stage in all kinds of undignified postures;Reebok Men's R Crossfit Nano 8.0 Cross TrainersSHOES Mens Leather Metal Pointed Toe Western Chelsea Rock Singer Casual Bar Dress Wedding Metal Cap for Nightclub,Business,Wedding,Casual,Office,Party yet the audience’s laughter seems to doubly imply both recognition of her skill and enjoyment of her subjugation. The applause of the audience in the archive video after Katherina comes to Petruchio at his command seems sincere, as it the audience are approving the taming. It’s a microcosm of a production in which men are consistently awful throughout, but always mutually congratulatory.

The standout sequence, though, is Katherina’s final speech. At Petruchio’s command,Adidas Performance Men's Nemeziz 17.2 FG she gives a speech of a few lines, and gets applause and approval from her husband. But then she goes for another few lines, and another, and another. An increasingly anxious Petruchio tries to get her to be quiet, but she begins exaggerating the speech more and more, getting up on the banquet table and flashing her legs, and finally lying down in a mockery of Petruchio,ZJ Men's Boot, High-Top Sneakers, Hiking shoes Mountaineer shoes Rubber Hiking Leisure Sports Anti-Slip, Anti-Shake, Casual Travel, Running shoes, High-Top Sneakers, A, 43AdTec Men's 11 Engineer Motorcycle Boot before flouncing offstage.Military Uniform Supply OCP Combat Boots - Coyote We see a glimpse of them having a fight in Italian, suggesting that Katherina is far from ‘tamed’, and indeed will continue to assert herself against Petruchio indefinitely, even as she learns to play the game of this patriarchal world. It’s a quiet reclamation of the play, but a potent one.

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Despite the potential for the episodes of Gentleman Jack to bleed into one another, writer-director Sally Wainwright has done a fine job of giving each episode an individual identity. The finale is structured around moving apart and coming together, as Anne Lister (Suranne Jones) goes on her long-planned trip around Europe with her two long-suffering servants for company, while Ann Walker (Sophie Rundle), having slit her wrists at the end of the previous episode,Dude shoes Rocca Bruno Suede Moc Toe BootsKickers Men's Kick Hi Diamond M Lace Up BootOfficial Karrimor Aspen Mid Weathertite Waterproof Walking Boots Mens Brown Hiking shoesNike Men's Air Max Dynasty 2 Running shoes-Wolf Grey Black Cool Grey-11.5 withdraws further into herself at her sister’s house in Scotland. Separated by effectively realised stormy seas and unreliable communications, the bringing of the two back together over the hour provides the necessary tension and drama.

For Ann, the situation is revealed to be dire as her sister Elizabeth (Katherine Kelly) turns out not to be the villain at all, supportive of Ann and desperate to see her happy. Rather, it is her husband (Derek Riddell), who destroys the letter with Anne’s postal address in Denmark as he schemes to have Ann married off to an associate. The episode develops a deep bond between the sisters as Elizabeth finally betrays her husband, explains the situation to Ann, and writes to her relatives the Priestleys (Peter Davison and Amelia Bullmore) to come and pick her up. There’s a mid-episode triumph here, first as Ann stands up for herself and tells Captain Sutherland that they are leaving, Jack Wolfskin MTN Attack 6 Texapore Mid Men's Waterproof Hiking BootFinn Comfort Filz-Clogs Andermatt cassis Wollfil-36and then as the Priestleys, weak-willed and prejudiced as they are, stick up for her. It’s a turning point for Ann as she takes back control of her own destiny.

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The vulnerabilities of the Halifax situation combine to bring Anne low. There’s a lot of humour as she travels back, especially as her servants (Albane Courtois and Dino Fetscher) huddle in the rain, vomit in the street, and fall asleep in the coach while Anne takes over the drive. Anne grabs the doctor by the throat when she gets back, furious to find her aunt well, but it’s quickly obvious that this is out of fear – we see her processing what might have happened.Enyellowert Strauss Portland 8P93.53.0.38 Safety shoes Size 38 Black AsphaltLa Pack Cobra W Climbing shoes She is likewise furious when her father (Timothy West) tells her she is an idiot for mortgaging the deeds to the family home against her plan to sink a mine, and Anne’s demeanour when she goes to the site and sees the scale of the problems is heartbreaking. At this point, she seems to have lost everything.

So hurrah for Ann, returning to Halifax and immediately setting out to find Anne’s address, only to find Anne herself. Their reunion scene is moving, and beautifully performed, especially as Anne explains that she isn’t as strong as she seems (or that she is, just not all the time). The scene builds beautifully to their procession of love, Hi-Tec Men 53097.0 Ox Belmont Mid I Waterproofand then we see the two going to York to take communion together, treating it as their own private wedding ceremony as their hands brush as they walk back down the aisle. Juxtaposed with the public wedding of Thomas Sowden (Tom Lewis) and Suzannah Washington (Amy James-Kelly) – which provides a cliffhanger as Joe Armstrong’s Samuel Washington starts to see the holes in Thomas’s story about his disappeared (murdered) father) –Skechers Relaxed Fit Larson Berto Mens Loafers Dark Brown 8.5 W the secret wedding of Ann and Anne is less spectacular, but all the more moving for its quiet intimacy and secret signs. And the bickering of the two, with Ann proving herself to be more than an equal to her more senior wife, suggests the beginnings of a happy marriage. It’s a joyful way to finish an excellent serie.s

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The Willow Globe in Powys, Wales, celebrated its 25th anniversary in 2019, and the coincidence of the British Shakespeare Association holding its first conference in Wales led to a special performance of the company’s Pericles in the grounds of Oystermouth Castle. A more beautiful setting for an outdoor production of Pericles is hard to imagine; the high stone walls and steep grassy slope made for a perfect auditorium, with a sea view to boot. With a rough breeze circulating throughout, the stormy weather of the play has unusual, sensual presence.

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Despite being performed on the Gower peninsula, a coincidence with the name of the play’s narrator noted in the programme, this is a surprisingly un-Welsh production. The strongest component is the band playing Simon Fraser’s music, which draws on Mediterranean influences and even includes an Arabic folk song for Marina (Caitlin Williams) to sing to the troubled Pericles (Nathan Goode). The music is beautifully doneK-Swiss Men's Norfolk Low-Top SneakersLOVDRAM Men'S Leather shoes Mens Black Wedding shoes Wingtip Patent Leather Lace Up Rivets Loafers Business Casual shoes Breathable Oxford shoes,Merrell Men's 1Six8 Mid Fashion Sneaker though the overwhelming whiteness of the cast means it feels somewhat appropriative, and it might have been lovely to see the company claim a Welsh identity for the play.

Sue Best and Ian Yeoman’s production boldly takes on the full text with no appreciable cuts. For the most part, the amateur company handles the text with confidence, especially Yeoman as an eloquent, commanding Cerimon, and Laurence Golding as an ebullient, avuncular Simonides.Fred Perry B721 Canvas B5177100, Trainers But the emphasis is on an ensemble ethos, with the whole large ensemble assembling to speak the words of the choruses, Gower becoming a collective voice that occasionally breaks up into the characters being spoken about. The Chorus moves about the audience, allowing the narration to come from all sides.

The highlight is the long battle between the six knights, played out as a series of one-on-one duels in which Pericles bests each of the knights in turn and they comically run away or are knocked out, the last after trying to take on Pericles without weapons. The dance is then played as a secondary competition, with Pericles unsure of his footing as the six soldiers link arms and begin stepping in time; as he builds confidence and begins leading the dance, the other knights peel off in exhaustion until only one other is left. This surprisingly detailed moment showcases Pericles’ ability to adapt to his circumstances and prevail,Merrell Men's Annex TRAK MOC Hiking shoes, Clay, 7 M USSaucony Jazz Original Tan Red bluee S2044-518 and the company’s sense of fun.

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The production struggles, ultimately, to establish emotional coherence. The lengthy reunifications of the last act are oddly paced, focusing more on delivering the lines than on the import of what these might mean; and the final act inadvertently undermines itself by having Thaisa seemingly instantly forget about Marina while greeting Helicanus. The production doesn’t linger on the troubling implications of Antiochus and his daughter,ZJ Men's Boot, High-Top Sneakers, Hiking shoes Mountaineer shoes Rubber Hiking Leisure Sports Anti-Slip, Anti-Shake, Casual Travel, Running shoes, Backcountry Waterproof, A, 39 and while Maria Carreras does a nice job of making Dionyza a hissable villain, the reluctance to make cuts means that the more interesting character choices struggle to come through. The production makes a fine case for its venue, and to see Pericles done as a community-focused project is a rare thing indeed. It’s a play, though, that would have benefited from a stronger sense of purpose and ownership; deferring to the text without exploring its possibilities makes for a long evening.

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The anthology Common People, edited by Kit de Waal, is an important collection of working-class writers, combining essays and memoirs with creative responses to the idea of being working-class. It’s a moving collection with a great deal to say back to a world – especially an arts/literary world that often fails to recognise the scale of its own socio-economic privilege – that too often seeks to represent the working classes, rather than allowing those from underprivileged backgrounds to speak for themselves.

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But importantly, the essay is itself no naive paeon to unions. As Voyce points out, ‘we didn’t think we were “sticking it to the bosses” … Rather, we felt poor, depressed, and manipulated by all sides’. In a world where strike votes were held by the workers going to Tranmere’s home ground, lining up in the terraces and sticking up their hands, the possibility for meaningful dissent was non-existent, and a worker such as Voyce’s father felt caught between the bosses and the unions.Adidas Originals Men's Superstar Foundation Casual SneakerThe conclusion to this account – in which Voyce’s dad leaves Vauxhall, goes on the dole, and takes on a new job as a night porter – is bittersweet, a partial victory in the escape from a no-win scenario, but also a reminder that there is only one winner in this kind of conflict.Dsx Trainers Men Loafers Four Seasons shoes Comfortable Large Size Velvet Upper Fashion Casual, red, 48EUAvia Men's Avi-Union II Food Service shoes, White Chrome Silver, 13 Wide US.

Voyce’s chapter is representative of the achievements of the volume as a whole, offering uneasy, complex and emotional responses to well-worn situations, and bringing an authenticity rooted in the personal to bear on the conversation. It’s a beautifully written essay, its conflicted memories and ambivalent emotional responses refusing an easy narrative.